10 January 2010

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She bolted upright on her bed.
It felt stuffy and she was sweating lightly.
Throwing her covers to the floor, Faith sank back onto her pillows.
Only the same old dreams - she stood alone, darkness all around her while Daddy's voice called out to her - she'd gotten used to them already.

At least I'm not screaming anymore, she thought.

She glanced at the bedside clock:
03:23

Wondering vaguely if Reece'd come home yet, she turned over and tried to go back to sleep.

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 The next time she took a look at the time, Faith was late for school.

Rolling off the bed, she tried to hurry to get ready.
Not that she cared much about being late to school, but another call from the Principal asking for her mother would be unnecessary trouble.

Not bothered to brush her hair, she just pulled her arms through a random T-shirt and put on a pair of faded jeans.
She hooked her index finger through her backpack, dragging it behind her as she headed out the front door.


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Feeling the usual tired fogginess, Faith stared at the whiteboard, hardly registering the fact that Madam Lee had already begun her lesson.

She wasn't a brilliant student, but she'd tried for Daddy's sake.
Now that he was... Gone... She just didn't try anymore.
In fact, she didn't continue trying at anything else anymore, either.

Her friends had stuck by her side at first, doing their best to support her.
But after some time - months, actually - of non-reaction from Faith, they'd slowly drifted away.
She remained distanced from everything and they eventually left her alone.

Faith knew, deep down, that Daddy would never want to see her like this.
He'd want her to go on with her life, not sink deeper and deeper into depression.
But how could she?
Daddy had been her world, he'd meant everything to her, without him here to cheer her on...
What was the point?

Everyone was frustrated with her, she knew that.
She was also frustrated with herself - her lifeless, emotionless days were meaningless - she was letting Daddy down.

3 comments:

Ken Wooi said...

interesting writeup..
is this a fiction story or it reflects the author? =)

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[rin] said...

fiction so far =)

Chan Clement said...

nice, love reading this post though its fiction.